Freunde

I suddenly miss my friends. Well,not truly suddenly. I always miss them. Always. I miss them a lot until idk how to say it. But somehow,this is the climax.

I was such a bad friend. I dont even know how are they right there and right now. I'm not up to date for what happening around 'em. I'm too busy with my ego and emotional wondering of being forgotten. I'm too busy thinking are they miss me too and wondering am i fine here.

I just sad. I cant do anything better for them. What can i do is just asking how are them and said that i miss them by facebook. What can i do is just say unimportant things at my another friend's mention. Just usual. Just for formally.

Yeah,i shouldn't wondering are they miss me too or not. I've already be a bad friend,ever. Yeah but however i cannot lie to myself and pretending to everybody and being fake. I just miss them. And i have no idea what else i could do to make them believe that i truly miss them,and love them.

Untweet

Effect.

My different faces while had 4 days of try out.

Whatever what the hell is try out,how my nem later,how my scores later,idc. I DO REALLY NOT CARE.

*nangis di pojokan*

Turning 15th

(sweet picture from @makomoka & @icaice.Thanksss a lot! <3 )

Somehow this day is the golden birthday ever.

Turning 15th is not a usual age. i grew up with everything in a two different places. i learned how to adapt with a new school,friends,and environment.

I learned how i really miss my old place and feel that my real home is not here. i learned how to run,not how to walk or even stay in my spot. i learned how to move on,without look back and say hello to a  future and new things. i learned everything.

I grew up with every little thing i like and dislike. i grew up from such a nerd girl to a labile person. who fall in love in a few times and never stop until they wake me up. who sensitive and cry for a simple thing. who suddenly sad without reasons. who act without thinking first. who always doing everything that i cant imagine before.

I learned how apreciate and respect are the things we need for life. i learned how i always need someone's help. otherwise,i can't stand alone. i learned how we must say thank you even for a simple little thing. i learned that my parents really influental with me,who always beside me when i grew up without realize that they are getting older. i learned a lot.

I'm getting older. i may just an ordinary person,but i really apreciate and thank all whom wishes me a lot things. i'm getting older,and i really grateful for that.

Alhamdulillah,i'm turning 15th right now. without a big probs,without a bad disease,without a sorrow. :)

Hidden Light

I'm stuck on a dark place.an empty room,without any strength,without any spirit.i'm lost,i don't even smell happines at all.i changed.i'm not me anymore.i'm someone else.i feel narrow.i'm not at my home.i don't know what is going on.i don't know what are wrong with people around,or even me.i make a simple things into complicated,just like now i'm writing this.

i need light.i have to find that hidden light.but i'm a foolish,i still dont know how to find it.
but i'm a foolish,i already give up before do my best effort.

Graphic Fever with the New La Sardina Pattern Editions!

Yang Lomographers mana suaranya??!?!?!?!?

Jangan bilang lo gk tau lomographers.peduli amat lah -_-
Buat lomographers atau yang baru-jadi-lomographers atau yang sok sok ngaku lomographers kaya gue pasti gak asing dong sama jenis kamera yang satu ini? *jeng jeng*

La Sardina Pattern Edition!!

Is they so cute?of course.semua lihat itu,semua tau itu,gue mau banget itu.siapa sih yang ga mau? kamera dengan wide-lens angle,multiple exposure yang ketara banget (dibanding fisheye gue) sama model rewind dial yang gampang,la sardina is the perfect match for the best analogue-picture ever.apalagi sekarang udh ngeluarin yang pattern edition yang terdiri dari quadrat,cubic,domino dan mobius.check 'em out dh

Quadrat

Cubic

Domino

 Mobius

And picture time!!! here are some picture taken with la sardina camera

Everyone love to improve their style.and with all of this cute camera,you can show 'em how stylish are you along with the georgeous picture you've been taken with this la sardina :)

Got the info enough?kalo belum kalian juga bisa visit Lomonesia for more info :D

Sedikit curhat tentang gue dong ._. hu dari mulai La Sardina baru keluar,masih yang bentuk nya kaya kaleng sardin gitu sudh pengen banget,tapi payah nabungnya lama T_T sampe la sardina pattern edition udh keluar.Sedih?emang.And i'm joining Lomo Blog Competition by Lomography Society Indonesia,ngarep ngarep bakalan menang dan dapet gratisan,mayan deh hadiah ulang tahun :p #mentalpelajar #ehgakadaya #yaudahsih

Wish me luck to winning this competition ya! kalo kalian juga cinta banget sama la sardina kalian juga bisa ikut lomo blog competition juga kok! lumayan kan mehehe.Tapi jangan deh,biar gue gk punya saingan terus menang deh ._____.

sedikit  foto dari gambaran gue yg abal -_-

See you at my next post as a winner! #eh #amindeh

I want brain washing.

Being fall in love in a few times is always bothering.

I feel like my brain filled up with only that sucks thing,no more.i ignoring my subjects,day dreaming,doing something that i know i dont have to.i just...dont know how to stop being like this.i need someone stop me.

Please,stop and let me out from this fuck condition.

You name the title.

I'm sorry,i should realize frm the beginning that i'm nt good enough for u.i forgot to look up through the mirror that i'm not beauty enough for u.i should stop doing this shits cause i already break evrything.

Thank you,for let me know how happy i am know that you already knew what i feel for u.and i should stop this and...letting go.

Thank you,and i'm so sorry for come to ur life ;>

9th

My parents told me that i am a 9th grade which is,i must study a lot,get serious with all subjects,no more playing and focus for national exam.i know that,i always try to get serious but they keep tought that i'm too relax.idk i must say that they already understand or give an attention but here i am,writing this with feeling unfree.i dont wanna trapped with routines,with schedule,what time i must go back home,what time i must go to bed and many more.i hate routines,i hate all of same activities we've done every day,no different things.i'll study if i want to,if i need to,not because forced.i'm not sure that will make a good things but i dont wanna feel unfree.you ever feel unfree,don't you?is that good?are you okay with that?are you happy with that?

i know they do that because they love me,but i just feeling unfree.i wanna do what i want,what i like,without a ban.

Karin Maharani

meet a new friend Karin at Inne's after has a quite hardddddd try out.

Have a nice weekend people!

Remember This?

The text,the chat,the past.


Hello dude,my best friend everrr.always take care of urself,i miss you and i love you.
I'll forget you,but i never forget the moment and what you've done to me.

Eleven Nine Eleven

I'm just too imagine.i'm hope too much.i feel that you would be mine,and i have to face the truth that its not what happened,and never be happen.thank you dude,you break my dreams and wake me up for realize,you never belong with me.

Hello and Goodbye,maybe after this i wouldn't meet you again.

.

Adani is not moving anywhere though she really wants to.

This blog would be so random,without reasons.So sorry for that.

Mont.

There's someone makes me meet a same thing again.

2010.

I hope this month would be so memorable,like last year.So much things hapenned,good things happenned.Meet a great people,describe you in this little blog,had a great things.And the songs.Brings back the memory,brings back the feeling.


I want my 2010 back.

X.

Broke up doesnt mean broke the comunication,a friend line,and act like i'm a stranger and we dont know eachother.i just wanna know how you are there,and hear that you're okay.even we dont have any relationship anymore.so please,dont be like this.

I still could be a good friend right?

Telling A Holiday

Maybe next time.in mixed feelings right now,so much abstract things happened.suddenly sick without any reasons.


Crying isn't enough.Writing all of these shits doesn't help.

H-1

I Forget Malang.

K to the L

(source)

Gonna go there on Friday,forget all of this damn up things,have such good things
And Nostalgia.

Bad Atmosp

i want hug someone and screaming and crying at end.i'm tired without any reasons,i felt like bad mood is my daily routinity.

I think i won't talking with any person right now.

Monday

i'm not going to school today.yeah,i had an influenza.what a great thing that my mom want to write a permit and send it to my school.i'm fuckin tired,not lying.after know all of my midtest score,and had a biology's exam(which is my bad subject) at end of the week and heard that next week will be another biology exam AGAIN.wtf.i think school could slowly kill myself.ato emang gue yang lebay ya?who cares,this is what i feel right now.i can sleep well at saturday nite,yeah what a really good satnite right?and i sick at sunday.and i'm just online and sleep all day,no a boredom sport,an unimportant-plh subject,calculate tax for economy subject,and a most amazing is not meet mrs H with her fuckin subject,physics.

my new twitter background.penting?um engga sih.

I'm not ready for tomorrow acctually,but yeah at least i must do all of that things.recess from sucks school stuff is the best things,even it just for one day.but i need more.and more.and more.

an unpublished picture

Happy Birthday ma baby girl!!
I was think about publish this picture as my facebook's profile picture,or my twitter's ava or whtvr,as long as you know how i appreciate your birthday.but suddenly i know that...."happy birthday" handwriting with germany was wrong.it must be Alles Gute zum Geburtstag but i just write Alles zum Gebutstag hahaha so i just text her.yeah just let's say that was my usual picture,no other.

I wish you had a wonderful every single day,get more better than before,and not far away from people you love.God bless you always,i can't wait to see ya this month :p

I was read my post about your birthday last year,and i'm laughing wkwk jaman jaman sok dewasa,jaman jaman brntm brtnman kaya bocah sd.but i'm still thinking about that,yeah maybe i'm not the best for ya.

SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN ♥

Tri-ya.

gue juga ngga tau knp fotonya begini,knp tulisannya leviosa yang bahkan gue ga tau artinya,yang gue tau itu hanya mantra yang pernah diomongin harry potter.show off my bed cover maybe?haha no laaah.just for fun.

Hey tri-ya,i started to addicted texting with ya.i cant stand for not reply your text.i always wait with worried,am i said a wrong words and that make you're not reply my text?and i cant stand for not text you first and i em.....started to blind.

i just want to meet ya,and said everything.i think i'm not want too much.

We’ll forget Jakarta.

Forget Jakarta's lyric always be my favorite,and same with the things that happened to me.



Trust me,its really touching.

A.

I'm not Adani who don't care about love-shits-thingy.who concentrate on her subjects and work hadly for get a best score,not who always cheating and write all of people's answer as her daily activity,who always do that by herself.who don't easily get paranoid and always take it slow and relax.who don't like anyone exept f,and not move on before g is come and break everything.who always crazying with her friends,and keep cheerful though there's a lot problem around her.

I'm not Adani,i'm someone else.

You're in,for this game.

woy nyet,i tell ya.lo kira gue ngerasa apa?you have a big mistakes baby.i'm not like that,though i always look up at your ts.and since your cf told me,i dont care anymore,i'm too tired read and care about all of your words.you talk behind me,and said with your bad words,and it hurts me.do you think i cant do that?i can do a same things shit.dont play with me,just wait my game soon.

merasa tersakiti?kalo gue ga ngerasa nyakitin gimana dong?
oh please feel-that-you-are-also-hurt-me.

Conversation of The Day

gue : "pengen ngeliat aja ya ampun ngeliat aja ya tuhan"
org : "ngomong dewe to ndok? (ngomong sendiri ya dek?)
gue : ".................................."

emang gue ngomong sendiri,mau apa lo.

Twepts

I love your cool words at your tweets dude,you're really cool.do you think that i don't know what you've been said hah?i ask you.

Speak English?yeah i'm good at that boy,i know.

Candy Bear

judulnya kok semacam kekanak kanakan ya-_- haha bomat.

Its weird when wake up in the morning and find out that my doll have been like this..

-_- what a feeling.that doll was gifted from my beloved friends,you must know how pathetic it is.

April

Its already April.i've made 4 posts this day! yeah,crazy.this is my good day,yeah good enough,not best day.so much surprise things happen today,and i hope there will be another good things to come.ohyeah i already waiting april for a long time,i still remember your promises baby.and i cant wait to go there,have a good things around,forget malang and all of the shits for awhile.what a good things huh?i cant wait for that baby.

what is that?just wait it soon :)
oh yeah ko,i still remember your promises,even there is no any relationship between us anymore.i'm sure you're not remember,but do i care?you've already said that you're promise me,when i go to kuala lumpur you'll do that things :p

Hey April,please being nice with me.

The Question

"you shock,aren't you?"


same as like me when you said his name,shit.

What's Your Favorite?

i just read a Diana Rikasari's blog,and found this good question:

"What's your most favorite song of all time...and why?"

let me answer that.
my most favorite song of all time is I Can't Lie by Maroon 5 because everytime i play this song,it makes a good mood,it reminds me of someone who i love and all of memories when i was at Kuala Lumpur.i always start my days with this song,listen to this song while do my daily activity,and this song can changes my bad day into a best day.and if everyday was my best day,i sure in the morning this song is already played.

and while i write this comment,i also listen to this song.i'm not sure that i'll be the winner but whatever,i just said what i want and make me happy.

sorry for my bad english,and you should listen to this song.

Thanks God I'ts Friday

Its quite good today,have all-night-long sleep yesterday and wake up in the morning.Its good,i'm not learn a damn mathematics even today there is a test.i listen to I Can't Lie by Maroon 5 while do my morning activity,and it always makes good atmosphere.had sandwich,milk,and honey for breakfast,and go to school without adam,as usual.i really miss him,is really long time since the last time i've go to school with him.but whatever,i dont want him break my mood today,because i already can control my mood.

i heard that today math,science,english,it,and maybe social's teachers will be attend a workshop,yeah sounds like that i guess.it means ALMOST ALL of teachers will be attend and i'll be not learn tht damn mathematics,with that teacher of course.what a good feeling,its true.since morning there's no any teachers come to class,just ppl(praktek pekerja lapangan) come and give an Indonesian's score.its good,my most bad score is 77.and then every grade 7 and 8 student go to the hall because there is a ganesha operation for um..training?yeah whatever is it.i got a packet of go's information,i open it and read it,it just like the student most best score at Ujian Nasional is come from ganesha operation and another similar and then i put it down back and just talking with uul & inne and look at deris and smile to yudhistira whtvr i'm not remember,while every boys make a plane and throw it.and i go to canteen and go to class again and canteen again and class again,like a dumb people.

Its bored acctually,but do i care?all the important things is there is no some shit subjects.some of my friends still treat me bad,said a bad words to me,and it really hurts.congratulations,you make me down.ah i dont care,i still happy and can smiling right now,thanks god its friday.

Today Is No Sunday

Its rainy season and the grey clouds complete the theme
The rusty fence, the noisy thunder
Creepy storm and the falling trees

Television, tea and coffee
All the books are getting dusty

If there is a way i will catch up for you
Visit the spring

Where the ices are melting
And the new plants are growing
Flower is blooming
And lovers are kissing

Today is no Sunday
Today is no Sunday


White Shoes and The Couples Company-Today Is No Sunday

28 March-30 March

I felt like this three days is really sucks.I don't know why,i always tried the best,to make a good moods,and find a new spirits.It always not worked,always.I've been school for three months already,but nothing get change.Nothing change me,to adapt and get friendly with everyone,start to love my subjects with a new teacher,and know that my new school is different than my old and i must keep my good scores.

And this three days,i felt like i'm really worst.i felt like this school is dont want to be friendly with me.i felt like they said that you should not be here,bitch.They are really break my mood,that i always find it for a long time to get a spirit to go this school.you know,i always get lazy for go to school,i felt like what for?i can concentrate with everything.i always tried to got a good mood and at least i want go to school.but suddenly they break it easily like shits.

I get a bad midtest score,especially for ja(fuck)nese haha.i get a damn much homework and double test a day,and i'm to lazy for study.i felt like my friends treat me really bad,and i really bored to hear every angry words from my teachers.i felt like i go to school for nothing,and i always wait the school is over and i can go back home.

I really want to go back home,this is not my home.

Instax

fujifilm instax

It would be great if i have this one.oh i (really) want that beybeh!

Violet

Don't ask why,i've no idea for the title -_-

Heya,its been a month huh?lebih kayaknya(JELAS LEBIH)haha.sumpah saya adalah bloggers paling malas untuk update blog dengan hanya menekan tombol new post dan mengetik sekenanya dan publish untuk diperlihatkan kepada seluruh dunia (maya).gue bahkan tidak berbicara apapun tentang pesan dan kesan selama gue di kuala lumpur sampai akhirnya gue telah pindah yeaaa banged-_-

Karena gue,lebih suka membaca daripada mengetik.gue lebih suka menulis daripada menghafal.gue lebih suka menonton film daripada membaca novel yang difilmkan(karena rata rata tebal sekali) dan gue lebih suka eskrim daripada coklat.oke hiraukan yang pertama saja.ya,walaupun gue punya begitu banyak cerita tapi waktu mau ngepos aja tiba tiba jariku cenat cenut(?) HAHAHA dan membiarkan cerita gue mengambang di udara.

Tapi seseorang mengispirasi gue hari ini,dan gue juga secara ga sengaja nemuin blog dia.malah gue nemu blog dia bukan dari bloggers bloggers yang lain,tapi dari retweet an orang lain dan dia yang membuat gue liat twitter dia dan menemukan link blog dia dan akhirnya gue baca dan DER,gue bingung sendiri sama kata kata gue sendiri.intinya RT-Twitter-Link blog-Baca-Inspirasi.

Dia cuma curhat curhat biasa di blog dia,cerita cerita sehari hari yah biasa lah,curhatan anak labil.tapi yang bikin gue seneng baca blog dia itu dia berani ngomong yang sedang terjadi sama dia,ga cerita dia yg baik baik doang,dan nyindir nyindir orang dengan bahasa seenak udel dan frontal,dan mengajak siapa yg baca untuk ikut merasakan apa yg sedang dia rasakan.gue tau,udah semilyaran anak blog yang memang,cerita begitu di blognya,tentang kejadian sehari hari yang konyol menyedihkan membahagian segala macam,dan yang gue katakan tentang blog 'dia' itu juga sudah dimiliki oleh semilyaran anak blog,tapi ya gue senengnya sama blog dia,mau diapain?

dia bercerita seakan dia tidak peduli bahwa semua orang akan membacanya,dia merasa blog dan dunia itu milik dia sendiri.berkata apa saja yang dia inginkan,tanpa peduli apa yang akan dikatakan orang dibelakang.gue suka itu,gue mau seperti itu.

gue bakal nulis apapun yang gue inginkan,seakan gue orang yang maha tau semuka bumi dan seakan dunia emg milik gue sendiri.

Apa kata orang?itu urusan nanti.

blog ini,kritis.